iMpOsSiBLe is NOTHIN’

duh..ini uda jam 4 pagi

dan gw n roomie n lulu baru aja nonton korean drama, boys before flowers, korean version nya meteor garden,,, itu loh, yg ada f4, masa gak tauu?!

haha…dan gw gak abis pikir,, kenapaaaaaa?? KENAPA TUH COWOK GANTENG PISAN SIH?

buset dah..seumur2 nonton film, gak pernah ada yg ganteng mampus kaya gini..

dia pemeran utama, Jun Pyo.. nama aslinya Lee Min Ho

Lee min Ho

gak penting banget ya bikin postingan kaya gini di pagi buta…

gile…

huahahahah…..

I feel a little disoriented right now

it’s juz.. i dont know who to tell about what i feel right now..

dat’s why i have this blog

it’s been a while since i’ve been in the shopping mall, or places like that.. the last time i remembered is when i went out with my family to buy cellphone and clothes for me, that was the happiest day of my life, cos my dad were still there

i’m alone here, and i feel like crying,

my friends are graduating, so their parents are here, and my parent’s friends are here..and when they saw me, they were like feeling sorry for me cos of my dad and i acted normally like nothing happened.

back to the main topic…

i went out wid putri and ella this afternoon, we went to buy clothes for church, i was excited to buy clothes when all of a sudden, i remembered that the last time we went shopping, i wass looking for shoes, shirts and dresses and it took me like 6 hours to find a good shoe, and my family accompanied me

there was a time when my sister wanted to pee and she asked my mom to go wid her, and then they left me with my dad, i knew that my dad were easier to please than my mom, so i was asking for his credit card and he gave me without hessitating, it hurts when i remember that, he’s juz too nice.

then i bought a pair of shoes, after that, it was already late and i was asking for Jacket, and almost all the stores are closed, but my mom and my daddy still eager too look for a store becos that was my last day to be there with them, and then my daddy called me, he said “wenny, juz take this one” he pointed one of the jacket, the color was grey with a weird style, and i didn’t like it, so i refused… and now.. i feel guilty remembering that thing.

after that,, we went to pizza hut.. and eat… he knew that i love Pizza.. and i swear to God, i will do whatever so that i could go to heaven to see him again.

i’m not what i used to be, i don’t go to the mall so often, cos i remembered my family.. i dont want to waste money anymore, i don’t want to do useless things anymore..

this afternoon, when we gaze the clothes at the shopping mall,, i feel guilty, i don’t know why.. i feel sad, i remembered that my dad was waiting for around 6 hours juz to let me choose the clothes, shoes and other stupid things that i wanted.

my dad is too nice

i don’t know what to do,, i miss him and my mommy,

my mom don’t call me often, she’s kinda busy, and i’m glad that she’s preoccupied with other things, i mean, other than thinking about my dad, i’m sad thinking that she’s sleeping alone on their bed now, and she cook for herself and my sister

God.. Why are you doing this to us?

i know that other people can handle this, but I AM NOT the other people!!

i dont know who to talk with.. i’m so sad

and deep in my hear.. i still feel guilty that i went home last december.. juz to let him die..

if i dint go home..

this things wont happen

God .. could u please answer my prayer,, juz this time?

jadi… hari jumat kemaren gw jalan2 ama orang, orang P, temen gw sih, uda lama, intinya.. tadinya gw suka ama dia, sekarang juga masih suka temenan, tapi ILLLLFFFEEEEEEEEEEELLLLLLLLLLLLL gila!!! ilfil bangeeeeeet!!!!!!!!!!!!

arghhhhhhhhhhhh… cowo P aneeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeehhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!! aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa!!!!!

jadi males ketemuan besok d sekolah, anjrit, mo community lagi.. ah capedeh!

bersikap biasa saja!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ingat!

beneran dah.. iiiih gak banget siiihhhhhhhhhh iiiiiiiiiiiihhhhhhhhhhhh……. aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa gw bener2 ilfeel!!

NAJISSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS>>>>>> arrrrggggggghhhhhhhhhh

gimana gak seneng?

hari ini tuh gw uda gugup kan ke kelas,, biasa lah..hari selasa tuh menggugupkan abis, karna kelasnya doc.laguna.. kita tanya-jawab mulu, dan dari satu pertannyaan, ntar ada lagi pertanyaan2 laen.. yang ada tuh pusiiiing, terus kalo kita nanya, kita sendiri yang jawab.. gurunya nanya balik ke kita, dan berusaha membuat kita nyari jawabannya sendiri!!!

ok.. itu tuh salah satu hal yang bikin gw gugup abis kalo mo ke kelas hari selasa…well..tapi doc.laguna bener2 bikin kita belajar, maksudnya BELAJAR BERPIKIR.. yah.. selama ini tuh guru2 laen ngajarin kita dengan “spoon feeding” style.. jadi kita disuapin terus..dikasi teori2 segala macem dan kita kerjaanNya ngafal2 doang..

sedangkan.. ama doc.laguna.. otak kita dipake mikir banget, kerjaanNya mikiiir mulu.. kalo kelas dia tuh tas gw berat banget.. semua buku dibawa.. belom lagi minjem ke library… soalnya kita walopun subject nya ss.prostho.. tapi pembahasanNya luaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaasssss banget, ampe ke physics, Logic.. bahkan Philosophy of man.. World History juga pernah!!

terus,,,kita juga belajar politik,, menetapkan sistem demokratik di kelas.. berhubung kelas gw cuma 5 orang, 3 cowo dan 2 cewek.. cowo2 ini biasanya pelupa abis dan suka gak peduli ama PR..nganggep enteng gitu deh, guru gw selalu ngasi assignment gitu.. tapi kita suka lupa ngerjain, jadinya lama2 guru gw marah2 deh.. PR nya dibikin jadi 5X lipat..dan kita pusing banget ngerjainNya.. padahal tadinya guru gw bebasin kita..tapi kita menyalah gunakan kepercayaan dia

nah..sejak kita ngerjain tugas yang 5x lipat itu.. kita jadi belajar.. belajar membaca buku.. belajar kerasss deh.. hehe..tapi kita jadi ngerasa seneng, dan puas

Hal2 yang gw inget banget dari doc laguna :

1. kalo belajar.. pake 5 senses, hear,smell,touch,sight and taste.. well.. for the sight and hearing, we could really use it when we study sumtin, but for the taste,touch and smell, of course we cudnt literally use those 3 durings studyng, but of course we have a brain, so.. use our imagination to feel what we study = ini dia rahasia buat punya long term memory!
2. Love What You Learn = in order to understand something, you should love it first!
3. Use your common sense, the general ideas about how things work, and
   
4. Be critical!!! use your mind to analyze things,and act PRUDENTLY,,,meaning that you should really think before you act
5. The highest level of human need is one’s fulfillment, or self actualization.. so.. when you’re fulfilled, you would feel more than happy, you feel satisfied and fulfilled.. it’s the greatest feeling that could be filled by a person,,Fulfilment might also be called Self-Actualisation or expressing one’s full potential…katanyaaa.. hehe
   

   Maslow's Hierarchy of needs

   gw belajar banyak hal dari doc laguna, tapi yang terpenting bwt gue tuh, adalah… gw harus lebih sering memakai otak gw, sayang kan kalo gak kepake..haha.. maksudnya ya, we’re fat with knowledge, but sometimes, we don’t know what to do with that knowledge, or we juz take the knowledge without analyzing it..gitu deeehh

6. Acquisition of knowledge is more important than knowledge itself

gw agak2 ngantuk.. uda malem nih.. lanjutin besok..

wenny loves prostho